False accusations

I learned a long time ago to never pray for patience. You pray for understanding, tolerance or anything else but never patience. Recently my patience and tolerance has been tested like no other time in my life. It seems that no matter how far I try to distance myself from the situation it finds a way to come back. Leaving a deeper more painful gash on my heart mind and soul. It has left me wanting to scream ... "Enough already!!"

As all this drama unfolds, I find myself wondering why I stand so passively by and let it happen. If this was happening to my child, husband or any other family member I would have claws bared and ready to fight to the death. But this is happening to me. I don't fight back. I don't defend myself. I just stand there and let the words thrown at me do their damage. I hold my tongue and say nothing. I stand there like a little child eyes staring at the floor, like I'm guilty of the crimes I am so falsely being accused of. How can I prove my innocense? How can I clear my name? There really is no way, its ones word against anothers. So for now I will consider the source of the drama and continue to broaden the distance from the situation. I am too tired, too busy to waste any time, energy and worry over it.

I know I will get through all this in time. I pray that in the end the one person I care most about will know I was the same person in the end as I was in the beginning.

Questions and Answers

Have you ever had someone ask you a question and then they get pissed when you gave your answer?

I was faced with this recently and found myself trying to explain my answer when I really wanted to asked the person, "Why did you ask the question, if you didn't want my opinion? You didn't offer any multiply choice answers!!" Just because you receive an answer you don't like, it does not give you the right to verbally attack the person. You asked for and got their answer (opinion)... deal with it. Don't ask them to explain it over and over or blame them for speaking their opinion. You may just find yourself alone and/or without a trusted friend. That is what friends are for... to help us keep balance in our lives. To listen and help us deal with life situations as they come. Granted sometimes friends don't always agree with us but that does not mean they don't still love us or they don't care... they may just see things differently. Either way they are still your friend. Remember, they accepted you the way you were, you in turn should accept them the way they are.

So the moral of this story... don't ask the question if you really don't want to know the answer.