Thursday, July 1, 2010

Today I learned...

- that often times I am harder on myself than I need to be. That the guilt and anguish I often feel is really just the Devil playing with my emotions and keeping me held hostage from the true happiness that God wants me to experience.

- that the saying "forgive and forget" is a man made quote not scripture. That when I forgive it is for my benefit not the offenders. That when I forgive I am saying... "You owe me nothing. I owe you nothing. That you can not hold this over me anymore." I don't have to forget it but I have to be able to say "Enough! I will not let you or this memory hold me down!"

- that God loves me MORE than I love my own child! WOW that's a lot!!

- that when I ask for forgiveness of sins that it is truly forgiven. I do not have to keep asking forgiveness over and over. That I need to learn to forgive myself. To let it go.

- that if all I really have to give is 10%... that it is ok. If I have extra sometimes that is a gift that He can multiply more times than we can count.

- and lastly, that God knows my struggles, He knows my faults, and He loves me anyways.

Judge not...

Lately my mind has been on over drive, trying to sort through daily happenings, one crisis or another,  but tonight it take an unexpected detour. Not sure why but maybe I just needed to reflect on some of the relationships I have had in my life.

Growing up, I was not the most popular kid nor was I one of the prettiest. I didn't play sports nor was I a cheerleader. I didn't have an over abundance of friends but I had a few friends.  I was mostly known as my little brother's sister and still am to this day.  But tonight I wondered... why do some of the people who judged me so harshly then now want to be my facebook friend?  Children and teens are quick to judge. I guess its the silliness of youth or simply the not knowing how are actions then would reflect on them later.
 
We are taught in the Bible to not judge.  This had me thinking ...  had I pre-judged or passed judgment on some of the people in my life, because they were different from me in one fashion or other,  I would have truly missed out on some great relationships and friendships. My life would not have been as blessed and as full as it is today.  My life is filled with people of all races, life styles, cultures, religions, young, old, rich and not so rich. 

Now the biggest question is... how many relationships and friendships have I let get away because I was playing Judge? Oh the mind is a terrible thing when it is left to wonder.....