Bless their hearts...

In the south, we have this saying “bless their heart” as a polite way of saying someone is a french fry short of a happy meal or as dumb as a bag of hammers.

Yesterday while working, I had the tv on so I could see Nik Wallenda’s interview on ‘The View’. Normally I don’t watch this show because Joy Behar and Barbara Walters make me want to crawl through the screen and shake them till their teeth rattled and then slap some sense into them. They really ask some of the dumbest questions sometimes. When Nik was asked why he kept referring to God as he walked the tight rope, he said he had strong faith and belief in God and that he was thanking God for all the talents He had given him. Barbara asked if he really believed God held him on the wire, he told her he knew that God had equipped him with everything he needed to do it and that if something did happen he knew where he was going. Joy then sarcastically said “So if you had fallen, you think you would have gone to heaven. How do you know that?” Nik calmly said “Yes, I do because of my faith and belief in Jesus I know where I am going when I die.” What she did after he said that is what reminded me of why I do not care for this woman… You could hear her say “humph” and see her roll her eyes! True professionalism Joy! NOT!!

This incident and the Paula Deen uproar (that’s another story for another day. Stay stewing on that one) had me in a rather foul mood all day yesterday. This morning it was still on my mind when I got out of bed. While making coffee I basically screamed under my breathe in frustration. Why was I still stewing over something that happened yesterday and something I had no control over? A little while later, it came to me… “well little Missy, you should have prayed about it last night!” YES I clearly heard that in my head! Ha! God speaks my language!

I truly believe in order for God to “bless their hearts” (and mine), I need to pray for their hearts to be blessed in such a way that they (Barbara and Joy) will believe and know that when someone praises God, that God truly does exist and they STOP mocking God and peoples beliefs in Him!

Ok …. Stepping off the “rant box” and going to pray.

May God truly bless their hearts and your today!

facing demons and overcoming obstacles

Saw this today and it really hit home... "There is NO obstacle BIG ENOUGH to keep you from reaching your goals if you only CHOOSE TO and STICK WITH IT!!!!"  We all have obstacles that we face everyday that hold us back from being free, from reaching our goals even from being happy.

So with that being said... I have chosen this year to face my obstacles/demons/skeletons. It has been a scary, painful journey so far. I have been relying on my faith to take each step. I have been told that I am am the strongest person people know, but I know in realty I am not. I have always been afraid of what people would think of me if they knew the "secrets" I held deep inside. "Secrets" that not even my family, closest friends or even theHUBs may know. This weekend I revealed to theHUBs and a couple of other people two secrets (feelings actually) that I held deep inside and although I was embarrassed to admit them, giving voice to them is forcing me to truly face them, examine them in order to release them.

I am tired. I am physically and mentally tired of carrying around the burden and weight of my baggage. I can't do it anymore. I am tired of being afraid of someone discovering my secrets. I am tired of hiding from my demons. I am tired of being held hostage by my fears.  I am tired of putting on a front and faking a smile. I am tired of being two people... the one everyone sees and the real me.

I want to be FREE. I want to be truly HAPPY. I know what I have to do to get there and I CHOOSE to make the changes necessary in order to reach my goals. I also know that on this journey there will be many tears, many moments of being scared and embarrassment and many of moments of self doubt. I know that a few relationships may be lost along the way but I am hoping that a few will grow too.  I know that this journey will not be easy but in the end it will be worth it. But the most important thing I know is that God loves me and with Him first and foremost in my life, all things are possible. I know that He will walk this journey with me, even carry me when I need it.

SO here is to facing the fear of ADMITTING I have obstacles and am not as strong as I appear and to KNOWING I have a plan and I am not walking this journey alone!!