The lesson dust bunnies taught me

While doing fall cleaning on my bedroom today, which had been horribly neglected lately, I became very aggravated, and just down right irritated. It seemed nothing was going right and I didn't feel I was making any headway.

The new vacuum, I received last Christmas, just didn't seem to be doing the job it should have been doing. I discovered it was jammed packed with dust, dirt, and debris. David and I took it outside where we cleaned, wiped, and washed everything. We put it all back together, and it looked brand new again. Plugged it in, turned it on, and it still didn't perform like I thought it should. I was ready to throw in the towel, give up. Ready to fix a mixed drink and call it a day.

Decided I would have a glass of water and cool down. Silently talking to myself, giving a little pep talk. I clean for a living, why should I have such hard time with mine?? It was then it hit me, my bedroom and I had a lot in common today.

This room and I are dirty, dusty, disorganized, and in need of a good deep cleaning. As I fought with the dust bunnies and cat hair, I found myself becoming overwhelmed. It seemed that I wasn't making any head way. The equipment and supplies I used just didn't seem to be helping. The yelling and fussing didn't help either. As I sat there cooling off with the water, I also realized that I am the same way with myself.

Seems no matter what I do to change the things I feel are wrong with me and to fix the things I feel are wrong in my life, I am met with the same obstacles. The things I use, the supplies, the equipment, nothing seems to work at times. I feel just as overwhelmed at times as I do today. I can yell, scream, fuss, cuss, and throw a damn hissy fit and still feel like I'm not making any headway.

When the water was gone, I walked back into my room and realized the half that was done really did look good, clean, and pretty once more.

Maybe that's what my self needs, a break from me. Give the self criticizing a rest. May be the next time I walk back in front of a mirror I will look good, clean, and pretty once more.